Back in Sweden

After one year I am back in Sweden, getting some X-mas feeling. Last week they still had storm and snow chaos, now that we are here Gothenburg shows it's usual grey winter side. Anyway who cares when you can hear Swedish X-mas songs all over the place.

Yesterday we went to 2 nice concerts right after we had checked out at the airport. And again it was awesome. I'm always blown away what musical skills Swedish kids have and how they are being developed in this country. 

We checked in in the hostel late and had a long sleep in morning today. After that we went to Freeport to do some X-mas shopping and even if my suitcase was full (and I mean full) already when we arrived I couldn't resist and bought more that has somehow to fit into my suitcase.  I will keep you updated on that part.

Anyway this trip is only lasting 4,5 days so on Wednesday I will be back again in Germany to get the last preparations for Christmas done.

smokers at bus stops

Always when it's raining outside you can see one phenomena (at least here in Germany) it's raining cats and dogs and the people smoking are standing in the small cabins at the bus stops while the non smokers stand outside getting all wet. I always wonder why the smokers can't be fair enough to take care of those people so that everyone can stand in the little house. But no. Sometimes you can see 1 person standing inside smoking and 5 outside getting wet. That really annoys me. What about you? How is it in your country / city??

A lot changes and so little time :)

So what has happened since August that kept me away from the internet that much in the past weeks? Well I got a new little family member named Odin. Which is a little dog and that kept us all busy a lot and still is. I had forgotten how it is to have a little pet that is waiting for you when you come home and is so endlessly happy to see you every time you enter a room :) It was love at first sight. 

Then I had a surgery on my leg 3 weeks ago, but I'm doing good and it was nothing serious. Thank God.

We booked tickets to Sweden, finally. Didn't even think of that I could make it to Sweden this year but now we are going some days in December. Looking forward :)))

not back to my works :)

/J.

Hottest Day of the Year

Today it is said to be the hottest day of the year. I'm currently on my way from Wittenberge back home to Berlin. And I'm thankfull for the air condition in the train. I had the best 24 hours since long ago. That visit at Anja and her parents feels like a little mini vacation. I feel sooooo endlessly relaxed.

The birthday party was fun. I had a blast, enjoyed nice people, far too much food and a nicefirework :)

My trip to Wittenberge

I'm currently sitting on the train to Wittenberge to visit Anja and her family. I still have 15 minutes to go while I already did everything you do during a train ride. I had my tickets checked, read, slept, drank some water. I probably have to add that the journey takes only 1,25 hour so I wonder how I managed all that ;)

website of the week

is about a couple from Canada that sold everything to travel around the world. They are doing this since 2009 and report about that on their website and on Facebook.

http://www.hecktictravels.com

...

I don't really get why I always have to defend myself, why I always need to say what bothers me or what I really like... It would be much easier to just shut up and don't react. 

Today was one of those days... I don't know what to say. Because of the reasons above I always end up as the loosing part no matter if I'm right or wrong. Mostly people agree with me (in secret, when talking face to face) but if it comes to the confrontation they go the easier way while I will be left - sticking to my opinion.

Even if people admire outspoken people - they would never ever risk that themselves. Why I will always be on the loosing side they will always win. They don't even care that they didn't stand to themselves, the other way is so much easier.

So the lesson I learned today was once again: Don't trust anyone - even if you think you are friends...

Blog / website of the week

I decided to start the topic blog / website of the week. This week the blog I recommend is the blog of Bengt Fiske, a Swedish priest who is traveling around the world with his association Wings of Protection to help street kids and prostitutes; people who are living on the dark side of life. Read about his impressions here (Swedish / English):

http://bengtfiske.blogspot.de

one day left and then 7 working days off

It's just tomorrow and then I'm of for 1,5 week, which is supposed to be my summer holidays. Since I was off 12 weeks in a row during spring / early summer I shortened my summer break from 3 weeks to 1,5 week. 

This year nothing works like planned. I'm not going anywhere this summer, which is new. But that part was planned. 

My birthday is on Saturday and from the +15 people I invited only one could make it. On one hand the little devil on my shoulder says: It's your birthday, you shouldn't care about it and shouldn't let other people decide when to do what. That little angel says I should just postpone the b-day/housewarming party to early fall... ALl in all I'm only disappointed. But anyway I will do the best out of it and have a nice trip to some nice place with my car... Any suggestions???

serious training today :)

Today I made the serious try to check my fitness before the run in 2 weeks. I ran from my new home to my old home which is approx. 6 km. I never thought I could do it and I even had the power to do a final sprint. I'm pretty proud of myself.

the track I did today 

On the way back I took the bus. I think running straight on is much easier than running in circles or run until a certain point and go back then. 

Now my legs feel like I walked all day long :) 

runs

I started running again, which is like yoga for me. During my runs my mind runs free. I can think about all and everything and clear my mind.  The last 3 weeks I ran during sun, during rain, when it was hot and when it was cold. 

I even signed up for two runs. One will happen in 2 weeks and another one in the beginning of September. I'm looking forwards to both of them. 

some pictures from the last weeks

I try to spend as much time as possible outside during summer, so this are some impressions from the last weeks :)

the last month

I went to work again, got new things to do, started running again. In fact I signed up for a run over one of the most important streets in Berlin in the beginning of august. I wanted to do this run the past 2 years, but was always on vacation around that time so I never made it.

If I can't go to my beloved Sweden this summer I will do the run. That is the plan.

In 2 weeks I'm turning 32... my birthday blues has already started... a lot has changed during the last year in my life, but some thing haven't... it's difficult, but than again it's life. Life will always be difficult, depending on the priorities someone has. If you have no goals or achievements to do, life could be easy, but I'm just too critical with myself.

I know I know

... again ... I know. Life hasn't been easy the past months, so much happened and is still ongoing and I'm not even able to put it into the blog, because processes are also still ongoing and I don't want to interfere them or even bother them. But maybe one day I will give you some more input on what kept me so long from this blog.

I can't really promise (again) to write more often, because I don't know how much I can write or if something interesting actually is happening because right now my days are rather boring besides the one thing that is covering my life at the moment.

Last week

... was the week before my 2-week-moving-vacations. I couldn't wait. Every day another message that upset me. The climax was the "not working" of my car. Which happened Friday, the day before the possession of my new apartment. One day before the big strike of public transport in Berlin: 

There was that little lamp of the battery that started to blink 2 times when I were on the motorway on the way home from school. When it also started to blink while I was on the way to work I started to worry and went to a workshop. I waited 1 hour to get the result of the checkup that the light machine was broken, which would cost me a fortune. But hey I still have warranty, haven't I? No I haven't at least not on this part. This conclusion was made after I had searched all the boxes I had at home prior my move. And of course I found the files and the last box :)

On Friday I got up early since I wanted to go to work earlier than normal to make sure that I get all the work done before my holidays. But the car didn't work, one day before I got my apartment and had to be there in time and one day before the big strike my car didn't work...

Thank God I signed up for the helpline. They got it working again. I drove to the workshop again, got my light machine, spent a fortune and had a working car again :)

one week off

Since I have a lot of working hours over I took one week off. This week I will spend with renovating my old apartment and studying. Today I finished the hall and also my little office. I have to see what it looks like tomorrow, when everything has dried. 

The original plan was to make before and after pictures and post them here. But last time when I started all this my camera card broke and I lost all the before pictures... now the after pictures don't make any sense :( 

Anyway I will post pictures of my new apartment when I finally have it :)

Currently doing good

I was longing to write that message, but things are working out at the moment, strange enough but I hope it stays that way. School is going well at the moment. I will be off next week and spend some time with studying. This is about time that I do something like that. I knew it would be hard but I simply don't have the energy to study after work. 

AND I started to pack my belongings for the move end of February / beginning of March. I started to deinstall my cupboards and to store my books. My DVDs are almost packed... who would have thought there are so many ;) I started to take pictures but at the end they got destroyed grrr. So I gave up. 

and when you think it couldn't get worse

Weekend... can I calm down, no... I hate injustice. I get mad when I feel that I am treated different than others. I try to make the same standards for everyone, so I'm having hard times when I realize that something is done just to hurt me as the person I am. I simply can't cope with that. And the worst is that I have the feeling that nobody is really willing or capable to help me. I tried to get an appointment but that was refused. I'm gonna try it again, someone has to listen to me or not?

what is going on?

that is what I'm wondering every day since the past weeks... how can things change that much? I will never understand what went wrong... was it my mistake, was someone bitching against me? time will tell how this is gonna end